My singular goal for more than 50 years of my life was 
approval. Approval from my dad, his friends, school mates, teachers, my friends, pastors, clients, bosses, wives and girlfriends.
I despised being out of favor with any of them. If I fell out of favor, I would do whatever I could think of to get back in favor with them, regardless of the consequences to me. And wouldn’t be content until I felt I was back in their favor and had regained their approval. I put unrelenting pressure on myself to drum up ways to regain their favor. Not always with Godly means.
Jesus was living in my heart, and I knew it. But for all those years I believed having Jesus as my Savior was not enough. I always felt it needed Jesus plus something else. More prayers or more Bible study or more repentance or more obedience or more serving…
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